Sleepwalking ... Love Within, To Love Without

(Written: March 21, 2017)

Have you ever had a time in your life where you realized that you were sleepwalking? What I mean is not in the physical form, but a part of your life where things seem to be important at the time, but not enough for you to take action. At this point you my friend are probably wondering, “What the hell is he talking about this time?” I understand the confusion. So let me try to explain a scenario that has just happened to me and why I am sharing this.

There are times in life where some and even myself has taken things for granted, been comfortable and just complacent. When there is someone in your life that is very special to you that keeps telling you things and ones answer to that is, “I’ll try or I am trying.” At the moment we may hear these comments or words from another, but seem to fail to take into the fact that these are very important and real. Whether they are to change a habit, situation or heed a suggestion, one may not take into the matter that it is very important. That is where we are comfortable and just complacent in our own ways or the ways in which seem to be okay. So when these moments of communication keeps coming up and hashed and re-hashed over and over again, there must be some importance. But again, we are what I call sleepwalking. Semi-awake and thinking okay, okay I’ll try. After months and even years of the insanity of ones lack to take action, we may find ourselves shaken to the fact that it just is too late. For instance, if this happened in a career or job environment, we are called into the office and written up and so forth for our change to happen or for us to get back on track. The very fact that this is what we were hired for and what our purpose was as an employee. When we are called out on this over and over, and no change, we are let go and or fired. I must say, this is the same thing in life. We are fired or let go of our duty as a husband, wife, boyfriend, or girlfriend. The hurt is so bad that we suddenly wake up and find that it is too late at the moment to try and try again. Yes, the hurt can be so overwhelming that our inner core is spun into shock and turmoil that we want to hear those words one more time, “Okay, one more time and you have such and such amount of time to show or act on these changes.” However, those words may not come. So there one stands naked, afraid, and complete awareness that this is now reality. It is time to wake up. The alarm has rung and the truth is now at hand.

In a spiritual sense, we sometimes take life too comfortably and forget about the other person who is asking for some change, some attention, and some commitment to be in the role we were promised to be in. Whether it is a job, a marriage, friendship, family, boyfriend or girlfriend. It is very important to always be awake and aware of the communication at hand and not to take the attitude of trying. As the great Yoda of Star Wars said, “Don’t try, Do.” That is a key here, just keep doing and make the promise to these expressions given by another. They are not said out of pure entertainment or playfulness, but absolute heart felt, need and love. For those who express them are crying out, that they love you and they want you in their life. It seems so simple looking back, but when we sleepwalk, we are blinded by the absence of compassion and love for the other and ourselves. We tend to just be so caught up in getting the conversation over with and moving on. Never truly understanding the importance. Our heart is closed and not open.

Unfortunately, we then find it too late and life as we thought we knew it has changed dramatically and emotionally for both. A situation that never should have happened, but did. So we take this moment to reflect and know that the reasons are justified and have a purpose. We may not know at the moment why, but we have to turn to Spirit and give thanks for the opportunity to grow once more and be in constant gratitude for the experience. Tough as it may be to do so. Know this as well dear one that in every experience, God/Spirit action is. Ask the higher source what lesson to be learned and to show you the answer to questions you may have. Only then will your inner being find peace and understanding. And also know that the inner work you do is benefiting you as well as the other who you hurt along the way. For each healing is a revealing. Oh yes, a tough and emotional road for a while, but a rewarding one along the journey. As such, if the two re-unite with a new understanding and respect for each other, then the possibilities for further engagement on any level is more elevated to a knowingness of greater peace and love. So work on yourself. Don’t worry about the other, for they too have their own work. Know this too, never stop working and never give up on yourself and keep and bless the other in your heart as each are on a separate journey in life and this is just part of the whole complex reality of things. I am in such journey and I am grateful for it, I wanted to share. I am humbled with a grateful and open heart. I love myself as you should love you too. That is the most important key here.

Love within, to love without. Peace and joy!